There is more to life than gas mileage.

Why hello...I don't really know why I'm so lazy with LJ. Oh well. My X-mas was ok. I finally got a digital camera. I got a few other things too...but I don't feel like typing it all out.

Tonight Mark and I are going out on a date. We going to see Wolf Creek and go to dinner. It should be fun. We always have fun. The I have a 3 day weekend! Tomorrow I'm going to SLEEP. Then we're going to some party at a really nice house. I'm going to be the DD. Hopefully it will be fun. Then I don't really have anything planned on Sunday. Monday though I'm going to a funeral. My mom's friends mom died. That's about all that's going on right now.

Man I have been so busy with other stuff that I forget about lj. I guess there is nothing really that important in my life right now that is worth posting.

Everything is the same, as always. I need something new in my life. I need to do something or go somewhere exciting. I just feel like I am in a rut and I need something to pull me out. School is really draining me and I'm definitely ready for a break. I have worked 9 days straight and I do not have a day off until NEXT sunday. It is rediculous. I am ready to have a break down. I wish I could reverse time and go back to being a kid when I had no worries and no responsibilities. Those were the good days.

Ok, back to work...*sigh*

I am getting MARRIED!!! I am sooooo excited right now. We don't have a set date yet but we're thinking in about a year so we can get some money and do all of the planning. So probably next fall since I WILL NOT get married in the dead heat of the summer. I am so excited and can't wait until we start the process.

I AM the happiest girl in the whole world!

So I am at work...doing a little bit of homework. I am glad the third week of school is already over. I hope the rest of the semster continues to go by this fast. I had 2 tests today, math and econ. I think I did ok on both of them. This morning was really weird...with the patchy rain. I really miss rainy days. The ones where the whole sky is dark grey and it lasts all day long. I have a lot of work today that I need to do. But the printer cable doesn't work with my laptop. And my comp at work doesn't have MS Office. So I'm kind of stuck...but oh well.

I'm really tired and I just really want to go to sleep.

I don't have plans for tonight. Maybe I'll go to the gym....?

Soo tired.......................

School + working full time is really tearing me up. Oh and it's only the first week! I really hope I can get through this semester with no problems. I'd really like to keep my job and my gpa high.

We'll see.

So I ended up buying a laptop. My mom and I went 50/50 on everything. I really am glad I finally have it. I needed MS Office 2003 and Wondows XP sooooo bad. Now that I look back, I can't believe I went so long without it. So hopefully that will help me too.

Ok a half an hour left until I'm out of work. Finally, tomorrow= a day off!

Fuck I am so tired.

I am not looking forward to school this semester AT ALL!!!!

I hate school soooooo much.

I don't know how I am going to do it...or IF I am going to do it.

So livejournal has definitely seemed to have slowed down....or I just don't have any friends.

I don't know what is going on with some of my "friends". When I reply to them and expect a return...nothing. It's almost like seriously...no one on lj is even a "friend".

I am thinking about stopping the journal and moving on with my life because this just seems like a dead end. It's going no where...relationships are going no where.

It is you? Or is it something with me? Tell me!!! Because I really don't know.

Why oh why do the days go by so slow?

So I am working full time and going to school full time from now on.
I am working T-Sat 10-6. So yeah, the other two workers here are leaving and we haven't found a replacement yet. So I volunteered to work a lot more hours.

I am OK with it because I really need the money...BAD. I am so poor right now. I can't buy anything. I am not used to not having money either. It is so depressing. I probably won't move out for years.

Just kidding, now that I am working full time and so is Mark, I am going to try to talk him into getting an apartment sometime in the future. I think that it would make our relationship so much stronger, not that it isn't strong now though. I just want to live with him, share the same bed with him, and all that good stuff. With me working full time we will have plenty of money for an apartment, car payment, insurance, food...blah blah blah.

So yeah anyway, I guess that is all that is going on right now. Life has been pretty boring lately.

So I just found out my friend is pregnant.....
WOW!

So it's back to work again. The weekends seem to go by so fast lately. This weekend Mark's parents were out of town. So I spent the night Thursday. Friday I had to work, then Mark and I went to Buffalo Wild Wings, I got sick, then we went bowling with some friends. Saturday I went to Mark's again, we just hung out with his friends and watched them get drunk. Then Sunday, Mark came over and we pretty much hung out at my house all day. We went swimming and got some rays. I actually have a tan this year! Then we went to dinner with almost his whole entire family. It was crazy but I guess it was ok. So that was my weekend. Nothing too special.

I really want to go tubing soon. But I think next week sometime I'm taking my car up to Vegas for a paint job. So we'll see.

I'm eating my wonderful lunch right now...a thing of apple sauce and a yogurt. I hate this diet thing. Dieting just isn't my thing.

Oh well, I guess I have to though.

Ok so two weeks ago I have my yearly visit to the doctor. I needed refills for my bc. So my doctor wanted me to have a blood test done to check everything out. I have a serious phobia of needles going into veins. I can't stand it...
So I acted tough and got it done, the lady was really nice and got it on the first try. So I get a phone call and my doctor says that "an enzyme was off a little". She told me not to drink alcohol, which I don't anyway, don't take any type of pain reliever or fever reducer, which I hardly do anyway. She wants me back in a month to see how I'm doing. Just my luck, I have to get blood drawn again. so anyway, my mom got the results of my test and showed another doctor at work. He says that he would have me checked for gallbladder disease/disorder immediately. Two things were off on the test, and off by a lot. i don't know why my doctor tried to hide it from me.

So I'm sick. I feel like shit. Everytime I eat, it makes me sick. If I do anything after I eat, I get severe pain under my ribs on the right side. The only way to solve the problem...sugery to take the gallbladder out. So I'm nervous. But I just wish I didn't feel like this. I just want to curl into a ball and die. It's that bad.

So I am sitting at work, trying not to throw up, trying to keep my head up...trying to survive.

I hope it isn't something serious. I hope when I get my blood tested again that everything will be normal and I will feel better.....

BLAH!

Yeah so my bday was yesterday. I had to work. I got a Dooney and Bourke heart barrel handbag and a matching wallet. I love them, but I just never pictured myself owning anything namebrand like this. It's not me, but oh well, I love them.

We went out to dinner at my favorite restaurant, Texas Roadhouse. mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm soooo goooood. The food was awesome! We came home and had some ice cream cake, which was also good. We went out to play pool too for some reason. Then I got some birthday nookie :). All in all, it was a good birthday.

I took today off though. Sandra and I went to have pedicures done. It felt so good. Hot Rock Pedicure. So yeah it was cool and relaxing.

I'm waiting on Mark to get here so we can go to the gym. I need to go get ready.

Bye

So I feel like I never have anything to write about. But there is some stuff that I guess I could talk about.

I hate my co-workers. They're lazy, gross, and stupid. I can't stand ANY of them except my boss, which I never see.

My and Mark's relationship is still going as strong as ever. Everything is great. We are just coming up to our 2 year anniversary soon. This year has gone by so fast. What we have is amazing and I hope it never goes away. Tonight he is taking me to my favorite Italian restaurant, Vito's. MMMMMMM, I have been craving it for so long.

Fast food is GROOOOOOOOOOOOOOSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS! You have no idea what they do to there food. Well I found out!!!! I will NEVER eat at any fast food restaurant (McDonald's, Burger King, Taco Bell, Wendy's, or Jack in the Box) again.

I'm losing weight, getting fit, and happy.

I finally got my a/c fixed in my car. It's been for awhile. I forgot what it felt like to have a/c.
Now I have to spend over $500 for new tires. Fuckin rediculous.

Ok I have to go.
My b-day is in 6 days!

It seems that lately, Mark and I haven't been able to spend much time together.
He does work ALL of the time, 6 days a week, all fuckin day long. And on his day off every week, it seems like he always has something to do. Friday and Saturday we barely got to see each other, so he suprised me by coming over and spending the night. We got to my house around 2:30 AM and went to try to find a place to eat. Fuck...NO ONE IS OPEN. I thought IHOP was open 24 hours, and Village Inn. But no...only fast food joints are. So I got some french fries and he ate some breakfast from Whataburger. We didn't go to bed until at least 4 AM. So basically, we slept ALL days long. We woke up around 12 and ate pizza, watched drag racing on tv, then went back to bed.

Its so nice laying with him in my bed, even though he steals my covers. I can't wait until we are living together and it is like that every night. I had been a little upset with him lately because I feel like I'm not always #1 on his list, like he is on mine. So it was nice to have a good night together. Things between us are cleared up and everything is going very well. I hope we can keep it up.

I guess I'm just selfish, I want him to myself. I don't want to share him with his friends, or with his parents, or with his job. I just want to be with him every minute that I can be. Like i said, I am just selfish. But, what can I do...I love him that much.

My birthday is in 17 days, not like it matters, this birthday doesn't even really count.

Well I guess I better get back to work...

Tomorrow is Mark's b-day. He will be 20. That's so hard to believe. Then my birthday is at the end of the month, but I will only be 19.

I was going to pay for his tint he got on his windows, but the guy only took cash. So Mark ended up paying. I bought him a viedo game and a new pair of boxers (I accidently ripped his favorite ones when I gave him a wedgie). I was going to buy him a new pair of shoes but he didn't like any of them. So I don't know what I'm going to do....

I'm at work right now, I put a password on the computer so the perv couldn't get on it and look at porn all day every day. It's funny becase I know he tries to get on everyday but can't figure out the password.
Oh well.

Today I am getting a microdermabrasion on my face. The lady is doing it for free and says that I will love it. We'll see in a few hours I guess.

I want to go shopping.

Ok, so I am VERY bored just sitting here at work. My mom got my car sorta fixed today, all I need is to put freon in it. I can't believe its going to be 110 this weekend. That's soo hot.

Friday and Saturday Mark and I are racing and we kind of planned on going out to the river on Sunday. I don't know if we're going to go tubing or not yet, maybe just hang out and get tan and have a picnic. We'll see what happens. We have been hanging out with more new people, a guy Mark works with and his wife (though they're only 22 and 19). Its been really nice. Finally we have friends, who we don't mind hanging out with.

Who knows maybe I will actually have a maid of honor and a few brides maids at our wedding.

I took my ring to Helzberg the other day, they're supossed to replate it with platinum because my white gold was turning yellow. So I'm going to drag Mark down there on Monday to pick it up and do some shopping :).

Since school has been out, the weeks have been going really fast. I don't want the summer to go by fast. I'm enjoying no school and no homework.

I want to go on vacation, to San Diego or LA. Maybe both? I just want to get out of here and have fun. But I can't really get time off and Mark can't either. So maybe it will just have to wait.

I HATE HIS PARENTS!!
I really do, they treat me like shit and treat him like a baby. Sometimes I don't think I can deal with it for the rest of my life. But I try to make it work.

Even though I've been working for awhile, its like I don't have anything to show for it. I have no money and have not really bought anything lately. I need to save up for next semester and my books, and a laptop. But its just like my checking can't/doesn't grow.

Oh well, hopefully it will all work out in the end.

My weekend was great. I spent ALL of it with Mark, literally every minute. It was so nice to hang out with him for that long without anyone else around.

Friday we went to the gym and then to have a nice healthy dinner.
Saturday we went to Texas Roadhouse and to see Amittyville Horror.
Sunday we went to way Northwest Phx and spent all day watching racing. (Not Nascar)

I'm going to go drop my car off tonight to get the transmission fixed. I also have to go to a group meeting for a presentation that I have on Tuesday morning. I have a paper due tomorrow in the morning and 2 papers due Friday. Once I get started it shouldn't be that bad. Less than 2 weeks left. Crazy.

I'm ready for summer break to be here. Even though I will still have to work 30 hours a week, M-F. It won't seem like a break...
I want to find a new job but I can't find anything that works with my schedule for next semester. I may even take the semester off of work and just go to school. Who knows.

So today after I get off work I'm going to lay in bed, hopefully take a nap....then do a little bit of homework, then I'm going to go to the gym.

Mark and I have been going every Monday, Wednesday, and Friday but I feel like I could do more. So tonight since I will be home alone...why not.

I have been having super bad headaches again. Almost migraines. Friday at work I turned off the lights in the back and was alying on a table...it was that bad. I don't know whats causing them, I've been drinking lots of water, getting enough sleep...I don't know what else it could be. I know I'm stressed, but it shouldn't be like this.

I have to read 100 pages for sociology by Thursday. Its ridiculous. Its over 1/3 of the whole book. I really hate the class and I'm excited its almost summer.

I can't wait to go on a vacation.
I need it.